Just spent an hour and a half doing some maths with Tabitha and I get why people teach. When it works and they're getting it, it's incredibly satisfying. There is an equal and opposite counterpart to that, but let's not talk about that now.

I don't believe in signs from God, but if I did, the entire world going into lockdown a week after I buy a new gym bag would definitely cause me to cancel a membership.

I am so ready for Animal Crossing: New Horizons. I was hoping to have finished Xenoblade Chronicles 2 but, well, that's not going to happen. Damn that game can be a chore, but I'm so invested now.

I've been thinking a lot about ghosts since Amelie died. I don't believe in them, or anything supernatural, but I can see why people do. I've never lost anyone close to me like that, and the way habit and memories haunt you is quite real. It definitely feels like something you could call a ghost.

The small, familiar noises, the shadows and shapes at the edge of your peripheral vision, thinking you've seen things you know couldn't be there. The immense comfort of being with them again, however fleeting, and that emptiness when you realise the mistake. Then they're gone again before you even register what was happening. Like waking from a glorious dream to the cruel realisation that none of it was real.

Feeling fresh guilt at wishing it would end because my hopes raising and crashing seems to serve no purpose other than to hurt me. Simultaneously knowing that when I'm done mourning, the ghosts will leave, and that's when she's really gone.

I haven't been inspired by music in so long. I don't even listen on public transport any more. I'd sooner listen to the rain beating against the side of the bus, or half-overhear snippets of people's life or work drama.

I know exactly what it is; it means I'm about to get depressed. I always lose interest in the things I love when I'm getting depressed, but music is usually one of the things that helps me. Don't really know what to do without that.

We watched series one of Altered Carbon on Netflix last week, and enjoyed it very much. It's got sci-fi, conspiracy, the logical implementation of immortality in late-stage capitalism. Liked it a lot (it's not The Expanse, but I find that an emotional slog).

We just started series two and the recap basically renders the middle five episodes completely irrelevant. Which is disappointing.

Watch Netflix with subtitles enabled, almost 100% of the time. The only exception to this rule is standup comedy which it ruins by giving you the punchline before it's delivered.